anxiety
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Rare Unicorn Sighting
I had such plans for this pandemic, I would read, I would blog, I would podcast and I would be a beacon of hope in these trying times. I have managed very little reading, some recording but no editing and a swathe of self-loathing and feeling extremely overwhelmed for weeks at a time. It turns out when the apocalypse comes all I want to do is watch Netflix and Disney + and I have no brain for much else. This has sucked. I have felt guilty, I have felt terrible and I have had no idea how to start again. So let’s put a pin in that because feeling…
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End of a Decade…
There’s this meme going around and it asks what you have done in the last decade. I have mixed feelings about this as I tend to do when things go viral and whilst its lovely to see those people who have achieved things, I worry that it becomes a competition and I struggle to think of things that I would consider major achievements. Initially, I thought oh my word; I have just failed at everything. But no this isn’t true. I have had a tough year and I like to think I’m finally starting to accept myself but there’s a long way to go but I have made a start.…
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World Con Round up
somewhat later than I anticipated here is my round up from the later days of world con.
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Prepping for Dublin World Con 2019 pt 1
I am also incredibly shy, I get anxious and I feel awkward to I'm going to share some tips with you that I have gleaned from past events that will help.
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Book Guilt
I feel guilty that I'm not reading them quickly enough and yet they still keep multiplying.
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Manifesto – Dumpy Little Unicorn: a way of life
I would be wallowing in self pity and having a very dark time, but I'm not accepting that narrative for myself.
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Being More Unicorn
I have had a rough couple of weeks with anxiety dogging my steps as I try and go about my work and socialise. I am feeling very fat at the moment there is a lot of self loathing swashing around in my head. I am feeling stressed and my self-confidence has taken a bit of a nosedive of late. I am skittish, I cannot settle, I have had trouble sleeping, I was worried I was on a bit of a slippery slope into full blown insomniac/head hamster mode. I have spent too much time at work procrastinating and just not buckling down to what I need to do. I’ve been…
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Well hello insomnia
Funny thing going back to the day job after a glorious couple of weeks off is the rising tide of panic and belief that I can no longer do the job. Thanks brain you really are super special. My anxiety and its best pal the Fear were in tag team super force last night as I tried and failed to sleep seeing midnight, 1.00am, 2.00am and 3.00am before losing conciousness for the alarm to wake me at 6.30am. I could do without the insomnia but it has become a pattern that when I am due to go back to work it will kick in with a vengeance. This leaves me…
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On going to a Convention by myself
I have done something for the first time. I have booked to go to a convention on my own. Of course now I am a little bit terrified, but I did expect it. The con in question is Bristol Con and I understand it isn’t a huge one but I am fearful and excited in equal measure. My main motivation of going is to see Emma Newman talking about stuff. But that is only part of the day. There are hours where I’m not sure where I’ll be going or what I’ll be doing and I won’t have a friend to keep my spirits up. I know I will enjoy…
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Anxiety and other demons
It might tell you something about me state of mind in recent months if I reveal I’ve been trying to write about this since the beginning of June. I was going to talk about why I’ve not been writing and blaming it on the job and yes that has been part of it. However, there is always more to any given situation. I think everything I have been dealing with can be linked with my anxiety and THE FEAR. It needs the emboldened capital letters it is that much of a thing. I suppose I have always had a little bit of anxiety, it all rather came to a head…
